closet_minstrel

closet_minstrel @ 2009-12-09T16:13:00

2009-12-09T21:13:38Z

So I am still not over her... I don't know why, but i can't help it, i find myself with her on my mind all the time. I got a girlfriend (fucked that up, don't wanna get into it) and i thought I was so happy with her, and after we had broken up, I realized it wasn't that i was so happy with her, it was that she helped me keep my mind off being so miserable... I don't know what it is, but i'm still in love with her =/ I hope she's at least doing okay. I really need to cheer up, get on with my life, try to smile more, maybe get out a little bit.

closet_minstrel @ 2009-11-08T19:38:00

2009-11-09T00:44:08Z

Focus in up on the sky
As the world turns and time passes you by
tick tock goes the click on the wall
but me personally i want that clock to fall
time has been nothing but a royal pain
the lack of it has driven me insaine
and the fact that i can have anymore,
or i can't move ahead to whats in store
I sit and think about things
how they are how they were
how they will and will never be again
i just want it to end
want time to slow down, or even stop
Maybe then i will have time to think
maybe make this right
instead of staying here cold
in the middle of the night
the world keeps on moving
but i am stuck
please help me
before i'm out of luck
the end is near
i feel it creeping slowly but steadily
The end is near
And i just wait readily
the end is near
and i no longer care

You could be happy, I hope you are

2009-09-22T02:42:31Z

You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go

And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played in loops 'till it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do

More than anything I want to see you, girl
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world

Writer's Block: Do you see psychics in your future?

2009-09-13T20:24:27Z

If an online psychic warned you not to leave home, would you cancel plans to attend a party? Would you refuse to date someone with a clashing astrological sign? In short, do you believe?

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Rule number 1 of the internet, don't trust it, ever

closet_minstrel @ 2009-08-05T15:31:00

2009-08-05T19:32:13Z

Run run as fast as you can

They’re coming to get you and you can barely stand

Your legs are like jello and you’re starting to sweat

But you keep on pushing with every last breath

You run to a building and then shut the door

But some climb through the window on the second floor

You feel surrounded and you just start to bawl

How can they leave you with nothing at all

They took all your money

And took all your bread

Left you with a big scar on your head

All just because you needed to eat

And you were tired of begging and being mocked on the street

So when opportunity knocked,

You ran for the door

But someone tripped you and knocked you down on the floor

The guards in the ally yelled “Stop crook!”

As they chased you with knives and people shot you dirty looks

They will do society a favor by taking her apart

Because people like that are doomed from the start

Just another beggar, scum of the earth

If they get rid of her she won’t ever give birth

To that child she trying to feed desperately in her womb

If they take her out, two street rats are doomed

And society will go on and continue each day

That little boy will never come out to play

But instead of giving in and just giving up

She but those guards all in a rut

For in this small hut she had set up some traps

With marbles and tar and feathers and tacks

They slipped on the marbles and pricked themselves hard

Then rolled to the side and got covered in tar

Down came the feathers right on command

And three oversized chickens were finally damned

Damned to the humiliation they put others through

And everyone stared and laughed cause they knew

If you try to oppress for way to long

Eventually things will all end up wrong

And the plan you had for a perfect life

Will come back and cut you like a knife

So be kind to those who need your help

Or else one day you might not be able to help yourself

I've seen better days

2009-08-05T17:45:00Z

I've seen better days
But others have seen worse
Like when a child's father
Is carried away by herse
Or the mothers who walk around
No shoes upon their feet
Who would gladly give their life
Just so their kids can eat.
The world is a place with both nice and cruel
But as of lately it seems to be a cesspool
Where the scum of the earth rise work to the top
And forget who they stepped on to get to that spot
They crush all their ties and throw away "the trash"
Just so they can keep making more cash
They use their power that is fueled by greed
And use their dirty money to plant another seed
They keep the oppressed down and don't let them up
While you walk around like you're big stuff
But here i am ready to make a change
Help people learn from the mistakes I've seen made
Bring people up from the horror and hate
Take people out of their jungles of slate
We can help each other become all we can be
And maybe one day this world will see
That is we work together towards a common goal,
And get rid of the hatred and lost for money and gold
Then we will prosper and finally be free
And this world will become a better place to be

Writer's Block: Fantasy Sports

2009-08-04T19:41:42Z

Imagine you manage a coven of baseball-playing vampires. The Cullen family is really strong this year and you want to bring in a ringer. Which currently active MLB baseball player do you sire?

Submitted By seannau

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well I wouldn't take a MLB player at all, I would take van helsing, because if he can destroy Dracula, he can destroy those sad excuses for a vampire

Writer's Block: Parental Involvement

2009-07-26T12:13:02Z

Are you friends with your parents?

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My parents and I don't get along very well. My mom adopted me when I was a little kid, and treats me like shit in comparison to her kids. She can yell for 3 straight hours about the reasons why I am not allowed to eat her food and why I have to get my own. Then there Is my dad, while not as crazy, is a bit controlling, he has set out a mold for me to follow as I grow up, of what he expects out of me. I have to get the degree he wants me to get, I have to get the job he tells me to, and I have to live in this hell hole with my mother until I have enough to buy a house instead of renting. The problem is there is nothing I can do about it, because I know they mean well. My mom is just crazy and thinks she is doing the right thing, and my dad just wants me to live a good life... oh well that's life for now, til I move out of this place, Maybe we'll be able to tolerate each other more when we are farther apart

i'm a loser

2009-07-26T06:49:12Z

So the other day I called Steph, even though she told me she hates me, and she never wanted to talk to me again, but the truth is I miss her, and she doesn't have my lj added anymore so I can put this, but the thing is I really did love her, I know we had our problems, and I know it would be near impossible to work things out now, but we had something good going. She had her problems, but I had mine too.
Anyways back to the phone call. I was doing good without her for a while, getting on with life, feeling happier again, but I needed to talk to her about some tickets I bought that were on her desk, and my guitar that i left under her bed.

Well when I called her, I half expected her not to pick up because she was mad at me because cheryl flipped out on her when she asked me not to go to avenue Q. and Steph was upset about it. the thing is I honestly would not have gone as much as I was looking forward to it, if steph had asked me not to go before I asked Auden, but Auden was really looking forward to it, and if I told my friends that steph didn't want me to go they would give me shit about still letting her control my life, and they'd be sort of right, but I do understand it was supposed to be something we were going to do together, something that we were planning for months in advance,and it was going to be on our year and a half anniversary, seeing as I probably wouldn't have made it up for our 2 year.

Anyways I called her to ask her for the tickets to Blink182, Weezer and TBS, and when she picked up she sounded so excited to hear my voice, despite her "hating me"after i told her why I was calling, her tone changed, and she seemed upset, and told me someday she'lll leave them in her mailbox for me.

I don't know what the purpose of this, but I just thought of the whole situation and started to cry, i mean I don't cry that often, but I'm just really sad about all of this. I miss her, and i miss the way things were, before all the stupid fights, and lack of trust, and things that went on, but now it is over, and I guess it is just best to stay out of her life, as much as I still want her in mine, because I want her to be able to get over me, I want her to think i'm an asshole if that'll help her, I want her to forget about me and find someone great, because, she deserves a great person,because she is one.

Writer's Block: Leave Room

2009-07-25T12:17:01Z

What's your favorite dessert?

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take a piece of chocolate cake, the kind that'll melt in your mouth, and but a scoup of vanilla ice cream on it, some butterscotch chips, and some hot fudge, I don't know if it has a name, but its amazing

Writer's Block: Life of the Party

2009-07-21T13:36:32Z

Do you know any party tricks that can impress a crowd? Or even just a little kid?

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well i like to run on walls, some parkour stuff, i also usually have my guitar with me and randomly pull it out, but that only impresses people who can't play because i'm only mediocre at guitar

closet_minstrel @ 2009-07-19T23:04:00

2009-07-20T03:05:46Z

We could sit and talk about this all night long..
And wonder why we didn't last..
Yes, they might be the best days we will ever know..
But we'll have to leave them in the past...

So try not to think about What might have been..
Cause that was then
and we have taken different roads..
We can't go back again,
there's no use giving in..
And there's no way to know What might have been...

Writer's Block: Family Heirlooms

2009-07-19T11:28:37Z

Is there anything in your family that has been passed down from generation to generation, or from family member to family member? What is it? And who do you plan to pass it on to?

Submitted By licktheknife

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Yeah, the last name Lautenschlager, it's been going down the male line for quite some time now, and it's a mouthful.

foar billy frum stephanieeee

2009-03-03T04:10:45Z

OK HI, so my name is stephanieeeee.
so umm, it's been a while since i posted in livejournal
so I decided that
because of recent events, that I could make a NEW POST.
and umm, so yea, soo lets just start of by getting a couple things straight
IDONTDODRUGS. now i know you all probably think i do drugs, but I don't, actually. and i actually don't have ADD either.
and um, um,
STEPHANIE + BILLY = LOOVEEEE
and um um um
I LOVE YOU.
=)

Who are you

2009-02-22T22:40:45Z

Who are you
I don't even know anymore
I thought you were someone I could trust
Someone I could read
But then again
I can't even trust myself
I don't know what i'll do next
I feel them
Those urges
They are calling me
Telling me to kill
To break the ties for good
All the pain
All the sorrow
To cause some of my own
To get rid of the nagging on me
But I can't
My conscience fights back
It's wrong
Why bring hate to fight hate
This world is already screwed as it is
Why can't we just accept life
And move on
But no
Somehting inside all of us moves us
We are called to fight back
To push away those close to us
To cause ANGER pain and humiliation
We know nothing else but our emotions
We all feel, and to feel is to live
so we push back and make others feel
We control the pain the best way we know how
by pushing that pain on others
those who are already carrying their own burdens
We lash out on them
Is this fair
Do you honestly think we can keep living like this
Well if you said no
you'd be wrong
because
It's always been like this
and the world will stay like this
individual people
sure they can change
But to change our lives
The way we have been for millions of years
Our human nature
It won't happen anytime soon
If ever

So this poem is complete and utter word vomit, I just started writing thoughts that came to my head
This is what goes through my mind sometimes, and it is jumbled and it isn't nice, things aren't always what they
Appear, though i may seem calm and refined, there is a war going on in my mind
a constant struggle every day of what life has in store, and there always so many choices to make
How easy is it to just stray off the path of what is right, and find yourself lost in complete darkness forever?

Writer's Block: Adult Onset

2009-02-20T19:21:58Z

Putting legal definitions aside, at what age do you think someone can really be considered an adult?

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it's a matter of maturity, and life experiences, it can start as young as 14 or 15 for some people, and others they can go a lifetime and never really be able to handle the real world, and instead have to piggy back off of others to get by in life

Writer's Block: Half a Glass

2009-02-09T12:24:50Z

Do you consider yourself an optimist, a pessimist, or a realist?

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I generally just take life as it comes, i don't think if things will come out good or bad, I just know that they are, and something will happen, and nothing will change that. If i put enough work into something then there is a better chance that things will go my way, if i slack, then there is a good chance things won't work out, and then there are those random times where you try real hard and nothing seems to go right, or you don't try at all and you just seem to get luck. Life is funny, instead of looking into things too deeply i just take it as it comes, and put effort where i feel it is needed, so i think i am closest to a realist, but i don't necessarily fit any catagory.

Writer's Block: Fearsome

2009-02-07T18:12:51Z

The boogeyman, global thermonuclear war, being forced to eat broccoli—there's a lot to be afraid of when you're a kid. What was your biggest childhood fear?

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Alf, i don't know why but he scared the shit out of me

do you know who i am?

2009-02-07T05:06:33Z

It's been so long
Do you know who I am
Probably not
It's just
I've been looking for you for a long time
I've seen your face if merely just a dream
But it was imprinted in my mind as clearly as day
I look at you
And I am sure that you are the one that has been calling me
Is this fate
Or am I just crazy

Please just please come with me for lunch
Let me get to know you
It will only take a few minutes
If things don't work out we will go our seperarate ways
But
I just can't
No,
Not I can't,
I wouldn't
I wouldn't ever pass up this oppertunity

Because this gut feeling i have inside
Making my heart feel like it can glide
Like a little kid going down a big slide
Just let me kiss you thats whats on my mind
I look at your smile and i see the world
As I look on mine starts to twirl
Round and round and round and round
The woman from my dreams
Is there in front of me
And you
Yes you
Would you just go with me

Lets go to a place where we can relax
Or be spontaneous just let us go somewhere
so you can get to know me
and i can get to know you
Because I feel I already know you
I met you before
the woman from my dreams
I couldn't ask for more

so

2008-12-15T01:10:23Z

I've been all bleh all day, working on my philosophy final for hours, it was a take home final, and god how hard it is, i've been working on it for over 7 hours, but i'm alright. I don't know what it is, but the shower makes me feel so much better. I get in, let the water run over me, and curl up in the fetal position, and just sit there and relax, the water keeps falling on me, and in a way it's calming to me, like a nice summer rain. so i'm back to my philosopy stuff, and i will probably want to get in a time machine and gouge a hole in some essential part of emmanuelle kant's body, but til then i got work to get done

remember remember the fifth of november

2008-11-05T23:34:48Z

I don't think that there would have been a more fitting time for this last election, because no matter who one it would be overthrowing big brother and all those that helped carry out his task, So now we are here on Guy Fawkes Day, with a new light on the presidency in the U.S. so with this I leave you

Remember, remember, the 5th of November
The Gunpowder Treason and plot ;
I know of no reason why Gunpowder Treason
Should ever be forgot.

Guy Fawkes, Guy Fawkes,
'Twas his intent.
To blow up the King and the Parliament.
Three score barrels of powder below.
Poor old England to overthrow.
By God's providence he was catch'd,
With a dark lantern and burning match

Holloa boys, Holloa boys, let the bells ring
Holloa boys, Holloa boys, God save the King!

Hip hip Hoorah !
Hip hip Hoorah !

A penny loaf to feed ol'Pope,
A farthing cheese to choke him.
A pint of beer to rinse it down,
A faggot of sticks to burn him.
Burn him in a tub of tar,'
Burn him like a blazing star.
Burn his body from his head,
Then we'll say: ol'Pope is dead.

happy Guy Fawkes Day

Writer's Block: The Beatles

2008-10-09T14:48:56Z

In their heyday, The Beatles were the center of the pop universe. Many groups have been hailed as the next Beatles, but does pop music even have a center anymore? Who represents the core of pop music to you?

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The only pop band that I can think of that may have come close to the Beatles fame in recent times (but not too recent) is Blink 182. Times have changed, the culture is much different, and there is now the internet. There are thousands of ways for bands to promote themselves, and with the saturation of music out there, it is hard for an individual band to catch a break. The Beatles took off because they were excellent at promoting themselves, but now it is tough today, because even if they have a steady fan base, there are always some that are torn between all the music that is out there, and there is only so much you can do to support a band. So great bands like The Beatles, The Rolling Stones, Led Zeppelin, and The Eagles just aren't able to explode onto the music scene and have such a big impact.

i am me

2008-09-04T02:25:32Z

Me
Who i am
A creature who is
Wandering this vast Universe
As time ticks by I realize my place
I can not sit idly as the world passes by
I am here, I must make a difference
I will work for my goals
Things will get better
I will be happy
Others
They will know me
Or they will want to know me
For I am myself, a force of nature
A being that is ready
to be stricken
Bruised
And beaten
For I will take it in
And continue to grow from it
For I am me
I am the one that is in control
I grow and learn from all that is around me
Absorbing all around me like a sponge to water,
And then using that knowledge and using it
To be all that I can be
I know I am great
I am
Me

3 more days

2008-08-29T09:44:02Z

This summer was by far the best summer i have ever had.
I did not go out as much as I have in past summers
but this year
I had steph.
Steph... who is she?
She is a cute blonde
With beautiful brown eyes
and the best smile ever.
She is the sweetest
most amaing person i have met.
Ever since that dance I have been happier than ever.
When i wake up in the morning I feel like getting out of bed, because i know that i will be able to talk to her
Love... that is what I call her
because she is my love
What makes me think of her
Clouds
Stary skies
Anything with a stupid japanese smile on it
Hello kitty
Hundreds of corney songs that just pop into my head whenever we hang out
She Makes ne smile, which is not an easy thing to do for long periods of time
But when she is in my arms
Things just feel alright
She is heading off to college, and I will miss her more than I have ever missed anyone
I already miss her and she isn't even gone yet
But I know that if anyone can make it through this it is us
Because I love her so much, and she is the keeper of my heart.
Stephanie
I love her
and nothing can take us apart

closet_minstrel @ 2008-05-22T08:04:00

2008-05-22T12:18:05Z

i'm so fucking tired of this shit
I'm tired of it all...
I'm in fucking tears over it and i don't know why
I've been dealing with her shit for years, you'd think i'd be used to it by now
8:00 in the morning she bursts open my door screaming at me
She's flipping out because i left my eagle scout invitations in my sisters room
"what the fuck is your problem you don't work enough hours,why the hell were you in your sisters room"
I was just playing playstation, it's not like they do't play my N64, or come in my room and use my comouter when i'm not home
but no fuckin no they are angels compared to me
I get up and throw my blanket at her, and in the process i slip and fall cause i had just gotten out of bed
I get up real quick and slam the door
She screams because i broke the trim behind the door
I fix that
her : "there are a lot of bad kids out there, I shouldn't have one of them
me: I'm not a fuckin bad kid you just treat me like shit, and there are a lot of crazy people out there, maybe not as many as there are bad kids, but i shouldn't have to live with one of them, but we all have to deal with shit, you are fucked up in the head there is something wrong with you
her: no you are a bad kid you shouldn't be sneaking around all the time
me: i'm not sneaking around it's no more then any of your kids do
no you are sneaking around
me: speaking of sneaking around where is MY REFUND CHECK WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU OPENING MY FUCKING MAIL YOU STUPID BITCH
her: oh i wanted your father to see that it came you can have it, and you don't treat me like that
me: i don't fucking care it's my money
her: you can have it but i better se the deposit slip and you beter start working more hours you don't work enough
me: what the fuck i work plenty, just be cause i'm home a little bit doesn't give you the right to bitch about every fucking little thing i do now go take teresa to school before your late
her: you don't tell me what to do... oh i gotta go
and then i just ended up in my room crying, i don't know why, i haven't cried in forever... it is probably just a mix of her and my dad all at the same time, but i just know that i need out, real bad. I hate it here, and i can't take it much longer